I Wish...

I wish I'm more mature,

I wish I'm more daring,

I wish I'm bolder,

I wish I'm smarter,

I wish I'm wiser,

I wish I'm more intelligent,

I wish I dare to take the necessary risks,

I wish I'm wiser with my tongue,

I wish I'm more in control of my life,

I wish I can handle situations with a clearer mind,

I wish that I don't have such excellent memory so I can forget all the bad things that had happened,

I wish I know how to exercise my authority,

I wish I'm evil,

I wish I'm meaner,

I wish I'm emotionless,

I wish I'm more confident of myself,

I wish I don't look down on myself,

I wish I don't beat myself up badly,

And,

I wish I could just turn back time,

To the time before all this shit happens....